Its just one of those nights where im stuck tossing and turning in my bed and thoughts just always haunt me at this time of night. Sometimes i wish my mind would just slow down. Thought after thought after thought. Tonight im just have alot on my head and it always helps me to wtote things down. A dear friend of mine that i love very much lost his mom about two years ago and i remember to this day how shaken he was by the whole thing ofcourse who wouldnt be.. He told me she went under cardiac arrest and that was what killed her. I remember going to that funeral and just wondering why his dad wasnt there but i just figured perhaps he couldnt handle the passing of his wife. Since then his brothers and sister have moved on to doing their own thing and hes here in ny with his dad. I guess because today was mothers day i was thinking about it and how sad his brothers were and the emptyness in his eyes.. I tried to find his old blog to find some old memories of when we were younger ive known him more than half my life i guess its good to look back. Anyway.. I ended up finding an article about hid moms passing and it said people were outraged about his father not receiving time for killing his wife after pushing her in a domestic fight. My heart sank when i read those words. I dont even know what to think about it..dont think talking to him about it is a good idea either but i feel the need to reach out to him although sometimes it seems impossible. Sigh….